Wednesday, January 31, 2007
this is Matt... he's so cool n handsome la ...
he is frm digimon adventures... had been idolising him since the 1st season ...
he was married tu Sora in the end ...Garurumon is so cool too ...
he is said tu b an idol in he's sch ... attracting females all around the sch ...
ewww... so cool
anyway ... tuday ... went tu play basketball ... den halway leslie lik fall down ... den mayb hurt he's leg abit ... bt oso no nid lik act till lik v pain one wad... my wrist oso injured... den when i show him den he say mine nort big deal ... den he try shooting wif an wrist injury la ... plus is internal injury somemore... he can score i tok la...
onlie noe hw 2 action n act cool ...
anyway ... hais ... dunno shiying they all wad happen ... n oso dunno hw 2 side either side oso ... nort sure hw 2 help ... if i side her,wad shud i do tu help ?if i side desiree ... wad ethings shud i do den ??? den it's lik nort lik i side anyone den she will gt bck wif hiim ... bt ... dunno ... relieved fer her as well ... n oso fer myself ... it means tt i can finally have no obstacles ahead of me if i wanna fight him ... bt muz recover my wrist abit 1st ...
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6:39 AM
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
actually i kinda hate it since last yr ... cuz evryone kip calling me tweety bird last yr ... bt i came tu accept the fact...
cuz my voice is juz lik tt... can't blame me ... bt it's wad makes the lonewolf so unique...tweety voice... hehe...
anyway ... tweety so cute... especially this one ... wif tweety using a crayon...
though i'm nort obsessed wif tweety ...bt den i still find it adorable at times... so cute rite???
ewww...didn't discover tt earlier... anyway ... today went tu c my sis play in the tournament ... nort v gd... bt if they try tu improve on basics den can lerhx...
den she call me ...
say tt she n him break lerhx...i was shocked ...i knew she would b sad... bt den i can't help bt den feel tt ... dunno hw 2 describe ... bt den i wasn't sad ... yup...tt feeling isn't sad fer her... hw 2 say arhx... erm ... nxt time barhx...
den jenna another one ... deserve some beating... she accept someone den ask if she sould break ... sot de la ...
anyway ... it's my mum's birthday ... so wish her well ... sty blessed n healthy ... hope we dun give heer anymore troubles... n hope she divorce wif my dad soon tu destress herself frm the pressures n tortured frm my tormented dad...
n ...hais ... dunno hw 2 tok tu her nw... dun noe hw shud i console... bt if he truly love her ... he shud wait ... n if he doesn't ... den he have no rights tu say tt he love her...
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7:06 AM
Monday, January 29, 2007
Syaoran n Sakura's love will extend all the way tu etertiity... tt's wad i belive... though the manga series stopped at high sch times... n in anime ... at primary sch ...
bt den their love is infamously lovely n cute... hu would have thought they would break up fer stupid reasons...
Syaoran looks lik a faithful person as well ... he will sure take gd care of Sakura de rite???
ewww
they r such a perfect match ... bt actually ... i belive evryone have a perfect match ... juz tt they haven meet yet ... wish mine will appear in my life soon ...
tuday ... went tu play initial d ... can't say i improve alort... bt i did improve... n maximum tune as well ... bt den i still v lik ... teeth biting ... dunno y ... hahas...so failure sia ... anyway ...naruto book 36 really come out lerhx ... bt den ... they say tt the last page is the Akatsuki leader de bckview n tt it looks completely lik Yondaime Hokage ... omg...
anyway ... tt Jenna... dunno hw 2 say ... she v funny sia ... bt den ... nort sure wad her brain is thinkin of ... eww...
wish tt valentine's day isn't arriving so early ... i really wish tt i wun gt past tt day as a lone person ... hais...
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7:21 AM
Sunday, January 28, 2007
these r Sakura ,Syaoran,Tomoyo n Kero chan frm the animated series,Cardcaptor Sakura... ewww...cute aren't they???
Sakura is the main character of the show ... v cute ... she is on a quest tu find all the Clow cards n made them into her own Sakura Cards... She will oso in the end b in love wif Syaoran ...
Syaoran ... is originally,Sakura's bitter rival hu oso wanna collect the clow cards... bt den in the end fall in love wif Sakura... n even helped her out at times...
Tomoyo is Sakura's best fren hu secretly admires Sakura ... she is always seen holding a camera filming Sakura at evry of Sakura's battle ... she is oso the designer of Sakura's battle clothings...she is also seemed at the end helping tu match make syaoran n sakura...
anyway ...guess wad???i finally saw Jenna's face...or isit??? erm ... nort sure... looks lik a super model ... bt den she is so vulgar de person ... the face sure nort lik tt de ... bt dun judge a book by it's cover... eww...
lol... bt den hope she can speak less vulgarities... anyway ... dunno hw is she lerhx... hope she's fine ... she say wad end her life wif him ... hope she oni say it as a form of joke .... hais... did i say things tu overboard???think i betta nort tok tu her in future lerhx...wadeva i say seemed offending tu ppl barhx... mayb cuz i'm tu direct wif my speech ... eww...
hope tt things lik syaoran n sakura can befall me ... it's fat hope ... eww...
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10:52 PM
Saturday, January 27, 2007
evry reader... plz consider the following qns n ans dem inside ur heart...b fran k n honest wif urself as well ... i shud oso post out my answers barhx...
1)the top 10 reason fer u tu cry
2) the top ten reason fer u tu play computer
3)the top the reasons fer ur hapiness
4)the top ten reasons fer ur sadness
5)the top ten reason tu ur disappointment
6)the top ten reason fer u tu chase after ur dreams
7)the top ten reasons fer u tu lik someone
8)the top ten reason fer u tu work
9)the top ten reason fer u tu go tu sch
10)the top ten reason tu wan tu stead
lolx... ehehehe... after a day of nort going online ... these r wad i think of tu satisfy ur appetite...
anyway .. my answers (nort in order)r ...
fer qn1 ...
the top ten reason fer me tu cry
-lose my handfone
-lose in basketball match
-lose my wallet
-when ppl mess wif my bed n soft toys
-drop my ice cream
-when she's sad/cry
-when she kip telling me hw much she loves him
-when i have gastric pain
-when i watch sad or ghost movies
-when i going fer dental treatment/injection
qn2
reasons fer playing computer
-tu c her online
-tu confront him
-tu get tu learn more frens
-tu post on my blog
-tu watch wrestling
-tu watch naruto
-tu learn martial arts
-tu learn more about basketball
-tu learn more abt cars
-tu gt tu chat wif my frens
qn3
top ten reasons tu b happy
-when she promised me smth
-when she tell me she's hpy
-when my mum or dad bought me something
-when our basketball team gets stronger
-when she holded my hand
-when i gt a new handfone
-when i chat wif her when she's online
-when she stands close tu me
-when we stare at each other n c hu nv blink the longest
-when leslie shut up n act cool(prefer tt den when he craps around)
qn4
top ten reasons fer my sadness
-when she's sad n is crying over him
-when i couldn't help her
-when wadeva i do ... i noe tt my status will onlie remain as fren
-when i lose in a basketball match
-when i lose in initial d racing
-when leslie always tells lies saying hw great he is
-when she lie tu me
-when i find tt jomelle is nort the person i always knew
-when ppl cut themselves
-when i can't stop my parents frm smoking
-when i can't save the frenship between me n kelvin
qn5
top ten reason fer disappointment
-when leslie says he did something great n wanna show me den when he can't, he give excuses
-when she lie tu me ...
-when she tell me tt wadeva i do doesn't help
-when ppl say tt they will call me bt in the end nv
-when my dad n mum r heavy smokers
-when leslie's mum help him tu lend POpcoRN comics
-when short ppl tell themselves tt they lose cuz the opponent is too tall
-when kelvin didn't lik jiu shi wo , a song by lin jun jie
-when verock wasn't touched by wad joseph had done fer her
-when she tells me tt it's nort cuz of he's lack of care n concern which made her cry
qn6
reasons fer chasing my dream
-without my dream , my life will b some sort of lifeless
-without dreams... there will b no promise
-becuz i wan tu prove tt shorties doesn't lose n tt i'm too fast fer u (shudn't reveal the name)
-becuz...my dream is my future job opportunity
-becuz i dun wan tu lose my opportunity
-becus ...evryone nid a hope tu pin on
-becuz i wan evryone tu acknowledge my existence...especially her
-becuz i nid tt fer real tu prove evryone hu looked down on me wrong
-becuz i muz live tu the legend killer's name
-becuz i wan tu b the top,the 1st ever
qn7
top ten reasons fer me tu lik someone
-i lik her cuz she is kind
-though might nort b the soft type ... bt can b gentle at times
-always think of her stead(tt bloody "him") more den anyone else... v faithful...
-being caring n thoughful
-think of others ahead of self
-trying tu make evryone hpy ... though it often made herself end up being unhpy
-her voice sounds lik melody tu me
-her eyeball is as shiny n bright as the sun
-her hair is as soft as silk
-cuz simply... it's a feeling
qn8
top ten reason fer me tu work
-tu gt me excited
-tu earn some money
-tu c if there's chio bu
-tu meet new frens
-tu learn hw tu slack
-tu gt free experience
-tu gain freedom
-tu feel tt i still survive on earth
-tu enjoy teenage life
-tu contribute tu family
qn9
top 10 reason fer me tu go tu sch
-tu c my frens
-tu chat wif kelvin
-tu interact wif teachers especially ms ng
-tu find aloy they all
-tu do art work ... frankly speaking...tt's the subject we interact wif most
-escape frm boredom at hm
-can play bball
-eat at canteen
-tu b honoured as yusoffian
-tu c chiobu
qn10
reason tu 1 2 stead
-wan some comfort
-wan some concern
-wan some love
-wan her warmth
-wan tu spend time wif her
-dun wish tu have a lonely valentines
-tu b lik aikawa n pony chan
-tu feel tt i still belong tu the world
-tu gt her the hapiness i can give
-tu b wif her 4eva
...
bt i noe tt miracles lik tt wun happen...cuz she wun b steading wif me de...hais...eww...bb
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7:07 PM
Friday, January 26, 2007
ewww... he's so cool ... evry of he's moves r so nice... n he can dunk ... height 187cm ...
he can shoot 3 pointer shots, lay up n etc... lolx...
even the female lead character oso fall fer him ...
he has he's own cheerleading group .... consisting of 3 main girls ...
tuday ... fever... eww... so xin ku ... den eat lunch at a v late de time ...
find tt there were noone there fer me ... when i needed someone straight... someone even lik force me tu withdraw the sparring thingy ... hais ... wish the world end lik tt... eww... bb...tumolo ... dunno wad can happen...
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7:44 AM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
den the one wif red color jersey...great at jump shot...n dunkin ...
den the black jersey de is great at he's lay up n he's "3 pointer "draaw foul...
den ... the yellow jersey den is the best at he's 3 pointer shots...
anyway ... they r the best players.... nort tu b reckon wif ...
tuday ... went fer interview... den went tu clarke quay ... omg... it's lik ... eww... so beautiful ... it's the 1st time in my life tt i c the boat over there...
n anyway ... hehe... today ... eww... dunno ... does huimin really treat me as fren alrdy ???
ewww...anyway ... hope evryone's well ... tt amanda dunno wad sia ... dun trust me ...
ewww....hehe...anyway...think the day towards the battle is nort far le...hehe
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5:06 AM
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
this is mitsui frm slamdunk ... the anime which is courtesy tu popularised basketball ... n oso helped alort in plots fer dearboys... hehe...
yeah ... n this is my second favourite player in the slam dunk ... or shud say he is my favourite???
hmm ...mitsui ... 184...shooting guard...#14... used tu b a MVP in Junior High ... hehe... he is a great 3 point shooter... great shooting machine ... oso quite great at laying up ...
hehe... i admire he's coolness when shooting ... n tt confidence he had when shooting ...
he's determination tu gt bck tu the court oso attracted me ... as well as he's nvr say die spirit...
ewww... so cool ... if i am half as great as him ... i would have been a betta player lerhx ...
den ... today ... ew... still v damn bored the whole day ... morning... chatted wif a girl ... den afternoon ... kip checking on martial arts... eww... some were juz so brutal man ... hehe...
trying tu think of wad move i shud use ... as the Determinator ... eww... tt's hard... bt i alrdy think of the GT-Apex lerhx ... i oso have THE SPAR tu b my bckup ...
hehe...
den. ... played bball ... shud say nw i cn remain cooled down n calm enuff tu shoot out the 3 pointer shots... hehe... den ... dunno hu say i say tt amanda acbc... bt den alrite nvm ... if tt person let me find out i sure rip he's or her @$$ off...
n tt's hw i end it all here... Break it Down ...
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8:13 AM
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
this is Aikawa ... the main character of dearboys ... u can c frm the pictures... he's hardwork n the difference in he's mood on the court n off the court...
he's a complete serious person on the court n can b a humourous joker when off the court...
he is a phenomenon forward wif great leaping ability...able tu dunk at an unbelievable height of 175cm ... plus he doesn't juz go fer normal dunks ... he could even dunk frm the free throw line.. isn't tt interesting??? ewww
anyway ... bout tuday ... afternoon had a tiff wif julian,huimin n jomelle .. glad tt jomelle n huimin r bck alrdy ... it's smth i had alrdy predicted... bt den ...oso tt i will b hated by both ... yupp ... no choice...
even had some kind of an arguement wif amanda cher as well ... dun wish tu live anymore liao la ... eww..
hais...hw i missed the peaceful days where i had fun ... wif teng hui n kelvin n edmund n joseph ... we were once v gd pals...
den ... haix...whole day juz passed lik tt ...
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4:26 AM
Monday, January 22, 2007
amanda made fer me derhx ... tyty ... it's so damn awesome n cool ... ewww...
anyway ... hais ... yesterday nite... ate durian ... lol ... ate alort... taste so nice... n as i eat... it reminds me of tt freak ... de more it taste nicer... wahahars...
this morning... lectured by my unreasonable dad... think he really so high rank ... smtimes i even too embarassed tu tell ppl tt my dad work as a fortune teller... he's juz a super hypocrite tu me ...
eww...den i come bck after accomapnying my mum to docter.. den slack ard at hm ... den suddenly huimin n jomelle de quarrel gt me involved... acutally wanna stand fair de... bt den ... jomelle bckstabbed me on smth i nv did ... den i super angry n disappointed... she's lik a chnged person alrdy ...
den ... eww... i wanna bash the wall ... huimin ... the more i think the more i'm angry ... courtesy tu cally n wenjie's advice... told her off... eww.. sry ... bt den ... since ur durian is so impt tu u ... den i have no other choice lerhx...
den tok wif amanda after teabreak which is still durian ... hehe...
den ... i wanna go tu ... helll...hais..
eww... when will i ever find true love??? eww... wish there will b ppl hu love me as much as pony chan love aikawa...
hais ... bt i noe this will nvv come true ... hais ... bb...
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2:22 AM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
this is Narita Church Central ... They r NBA standard n has the tallest average height ... having players over 190 except fer the starting point guard...
it's hard tu introduce evry single main five players ... bt wad i conclude bout the team is tt ... they had improved dramatically... due tu the greatly improved point guard num 7
he looks so damn cool wif he's new hairstyle(nort shown here) he was previously a guard hu lack confidence n leadership ... displaying gentleness which was the weakness he had... in the recent comic series... he had chnged he's weakness... being a great leader on the court... being commented by the reporter as the oni team able tu gt on the same standard wif tendouji ...
number 4 ... is the captain ... is a great forward... displaying great sportsmanship in the match against mizuno when he pleaded fer the coach tu nort play rough n despicable acts on the mizuno ... he is a great jumper ... great shooter ... n has the trademark fadeaway ...
evryone in the team except number 7 had so far displayed their height advantages ... n had some great shooters frm the three point line ... as displayed by number 6 ... they have no loopholes juz lik tendouji ... nort losing tu em ... evryone in the team except number 7 could dunk ...
now ... erm ... tuday ... was moodless... bt den ... had some great shots too ...
den ... went bck hm ... juz nw huimin ask me call julian fer her... hais ... on account of her den i no choice ... can't reject the help ... bt den was pissed off when julian de voice lik bu shuang me ... he wan spar come larhx ... i really nort scared de... i sure show him wad is evil ... pure sinful evil ... i find tt noone care fer my existence at all ... am i even alive???doubt so ... hais ...
wadeva ppl do is rite... he bu shuang me ... of cuz she wil side him la ... aiyo ... it's obvious ... i am the wrong one ... ok la ... he gd la ...
den my muscles aching ... leg can't move n function well ... cuz these few days played de bball is with adults barhx... mostly cuz of tt... strained my legs too much after a yr or so without tt ...
hais ... hope my days of reckonings could end well ... hais
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4:06 AM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
this is Mizuno ... the main character's team ...
they r a powerpack newbie team which evolves as time past...
they have the bball genius... Aikawa... number 7 small forward... able tu score frm almost evrywhere on the court... best known fer he's leaping ability ... able tu dunk the ball wif a height of 175 ...
they have the top 3 point guard in the whole of japan ... takumi fujiwara... oso my favourite character... he is number 4 ... a gd point guard... hu is known fer he's hardcore passing ... where he pass wif full strength tu a cutting in team mate... a true potential guard...
they...oso have a shooting guard... miura ... a cool three pointer shooter... always having a calm mind... a gd left handed shooter... bt oso appears femine ...
they have a great power forward... ishii ... number 6 ... hu has great determination n force... daring ... n has gd teamwork which was developed as the team advances ...
they have a centre... dobashi ... nort a great centre... bt able tu grab rebounds at time ... has hardwork ... n persistent,,, number 5 ...
they have ... toya .. the great sixth man .. able tu cope wif any positions on the court... having a variety of skills ... master of all trade bt den master of none... always humorous n able tu come out wif unexpected moves...
n so .. mizuno will b a great team ...
n abt yesterday .. fontaine suddenly ask me fer help ... hehe ... den oso chatted a lil bit ... hais ... den jomelle oso went online ... bt den didn't chat wif her much cuz she online fer lik moments oni ...
den ... tuday we play is lik ... nort v well ... cuz evryone r lik new tu each other n unable tu thus, double team n cooperate... bt when i play wif the adults... it was a great sensation ... cuz i proved tt i can control the game despite my heights... n oso ... my three pointer is quite accurate tuday ...
hope i can improve more n more ... hope jomelle online again tuday barhx...
n bonvoyage tu her... n oso t.c tu my newfound fren joscelin ... hehe...
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5:31 AM
Friday, January 19, 2007
this is tendouji ... the team which Aikawa , main character of dearboys left... they r a champion team fer decades... now leading by their new leader... no.4... they r a real great team ... i would say they r still the strongest team ... might b even stronger den mizuno ... though it's the main character's active team ...
they have number 4 , the point guard of the team ... commonly made comparison wif takumi fujiwara of mizuno...this number 4 is abit more pattern playing type hu goes fer and1 tricks den ... pass out of a sudden when he's opponent makes attempt tu block he's shots...1st pg in whole japan
den there's num 11 n 5 ... the pro 3 point shooters... 11 is currently oni 2nd grade... shoots three point at 100% ... the best in the whole japan...5 is once a great 3 point shooter ... bt was held bck by injury ... wonder if he could recover fast enuff b4 the finals tu face mizuno ...
den there's num 7 ... power forward... he is the best power forward in japan ... he catch timing of enemy's star player n blocks their shots without fail ...
den there's number 6...centre.. though he's oni 190+ bt den he has agility n great postures when posting up ... nort losing to tall players... he's hook shot, dunk r of cuz great bt den he is oso a great 3 point shooter... due tu dreaming of being a forward when going university ...
den ... last ... num 10 ... is the replacement of aikawa... he's a mystery ... bt den frm he's dunk ... u can tell tt he's heartless , vicous ... ruthless... he doesn't care abt he's opponent... when he dunks... he juz gt it in nomatter wad's ahead... makin he's opponentfall bt instead getting free throws due tu defensive fouls...
den ... anyway ... bball juz gt me hot n excitedd... hoppe training tumolo will b great ... hais... juz nw ... still did chatt wif her... bt hope tt .. after dinner... lik yesterday ... she will start tu ignore me ... den i wun feel lik tokin tu her lerhx... muz control myself nort tu say hi tu her when she online ... den jomelle... bonvoyage... b carefull ... hehe...
shall end here...
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3:19 AM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
this is the preview of my blog skin ... ...
ai-chan n pony-chan ... guess wad will happen nxt???hmm ... wish i can b lik em ... this is the 1st time i upload any pictures on my post... so actually was juz trying tu c hw fun it is ...
bt they r indeed lovely rite??? can't imagine if i were the one ...ewww...so cool ...
anyway ... yesterday ... hais ... she online...lik avoiding me lerhx... bt den it doesn't really sound bad... lik tt i can avoid her too ... den when time flies... den can lerhx...
anyway ... jomelle went online yesterday ... den ... ergh ... dunno hw 2 describe my feeling bt b4 i could even say bon voyage tu her den she offline lerhx... hais...
wonder hw she could cope wif her sch work ... dun tell me she has tu rely on jobina barhx... bt den ... hope she could manage it by herself n prove tu evryone tt she can b smart too ...
den zhi hui ... somehw scolded him ... cuz ... he lik thinkin wad i said was a joke... kang liang's bro ... hais... it's lik ... i till now oso can't 4gt... he is a great guy n a gd 3 point shooter... bt den ... he juz go lik tt... hais... he's oso one of the 4 ppl hu made me use my 100% ... so he is strong de... bt den ...
zhi hui thought i was saying a joke... so i smhw wanna scold him bt i nv ... bt den i ignore him ... cuz i really pissed... will i ever joke bout tt kind of thing?? if i wanna joke i now struck by lightning lerhx...hope one day he will noe tt i'm nort jokin
anyway ... bt she seemed v hpy yesterday ... muz b v hpy wif him barhx... anyway ... juz hope they live happily eva after... n as fer jomelle ... yi lu shun feng ... muz come bck tu singapore safely ... cuz ... i gort things i nid tu clarify wif her...
yupp ... think tt's all fer this blog ... hope i could upload more pictures in the future bt no doubt about it ... i wun reveal my face... so fat hope waiting ... =P
Loveless on
6:24 PM
den ... come bck ... hais ... things gone tu end lerhx ... she is aware of my feelings fer her... think i shud take one step bck n avoid her lerhx... hais... me is juz so failure...
den ... wanna die sia ... at hm is lik nth tu do ... bt later part was betta chatting wif clarissa...haha... jomelle still nort bck frm china ... hope she bon voyage den ...
hais... really hope she isn't aware ... nw i dun even noe hw 2 face her lerhx... i thought i can gt closer tu her in the name of fren ... bt den i think nw she hate n despise me barhx...
hais... hope i could turn time bck at least one round ... the sun ... (one yr)
where i am still in sch ... den i wouldn't have reduce tu this state...
hais... the world dun care bout the Lonewolf's existence... =( ... bt den ... i vow tt i will make a name fer myself in the future... i muz lead my team tu victory ...
n oso in chinese new yr ... i will b the leader ... so ... bt bad tt we can't compete against those ngee ann city de liondancer...
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1:40 AM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
wrying hw she will b doing fer her test.. hope she score well ... bt den ... nort sure... muz have faith in her... she's the smartest girl afterall ...
den had KFC myself ... felt tt all eyes r on me ... mayb cuz they think i skip sch ... bt i alrdy leave sch le... blame my height fer tt...
hais... bt i did grew taller... 165 ... hehe... den ... wish i can reach my dream height ... at least give it a 173 ... i wanna at least b the tallest in our family ... i mean including my uncles...
den ... it's lik ... wanna play bball ... bt noone tu play wif ... den ... hais... miss her alort ... den watch dear boys .... so cool ... aikawa is so lucky ... the person he likes oso likes him ... if i have tt kind of luck ... i go bang wall lerhx...
hais... den ... wish she can b hpy ... bt wish tu at least once b the reason she smile for...
bt den the gd thing nw is i think tt she is nort aware of my feelings fer her barhx... at least i dun nid tu dodge her...
Loveless on
5:18 AM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
i did improve in my bball ... in three point ... den oso ... i lead a team tu defeat leslie's ... den ... zech frightened me ... thought he disabled he's hand ... bt in the end is oni injection ...
den felt so evill ... i'm totally selfish ... when she's sad... i'm sad too ... bt when she's hpy... i'm nort totally hpy ... cuz the reason fer her hapiness is always her "him"
den ... really wonder if she noe my feelings fer her... wad shud i do if she does aware... den ... dunno ... bt think she's nort barhx hopefully ...cuz she asked me a qn...abt jomelle ... so thing she's nort aware barhx... so ... ending here... hais ... bb
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5:01 AM
Monday, January 15, 2007
when i sms her ... she say i miss Jomelle ... was really shocked n sad ... bt den i smhw told her tt the one i miss is her... den ... she ...lik nth happen barhx... probably she isn't aware of wad i was saying ... count tt lucky???
den me part wif Teck Wai lerhx den go hm lerhx... super bored..whole day doing nth ... mayb Teck Wai was right ... slping is the best cure 2 boredom ...
hais... the oni thing which was gd tuday ... i think ... shud b tt she called me n asked me qn ... bt i duno wad is tt... hais...
den ... she went online... seemed lik v hpy tu chat wif him ... so i shudn't disturb her barhx... n indeed fer bout an hour or more... didn't chat wif her... bt den i still can't bear it n ask her if she's going tu offline ... den she tell me tt she hardly have any words wif "him"
tt's so pathetic ... bt den ... hais ...
smtimes i really hope she is aware of my feelings fer her... bt smtimes i rather she doesn't ...
bt i do really wish tu noe if she is aware of my feeling tuwards her... hais...
dun even noe hw 2 approach her properly lerhx...
n jomelle ... nort sure wad happen tu her... bt smth seemed tu happened ... hope she is hpy wif her life barhx...bt after all ... she's unforgetable...fer leaving me a scar... nort sure hw 2 approach her as well ...
hope tu noe... hope anyone can tell me ... if she is aware of my feelings fer her... if i noe den at least i noe wad tu do ... cuz if she's aware... i will try tu avoid her barhx... bt if nort ... i can still gt closer in the form of a close fren ... den try making her hpy ... as long as i can do tt fer her... i think i will b doing my part lerhx...
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6:02 AM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
den ... bin quan ... so strong... bt den ... he's too fast... n bt den ...he haven decide if he shud join ... if he join ... den .... my dream team will b closer tu us ...
Nicholas centre
Zech Power Forward
Me small forward
Zhi Hui shooting guard
Bin Quan Point Guard
den leslie n Eugene is substitute...
den ... leslie de mum say leslie styed overnite in someone's hus ... omg... pity tt girl v much ... juz wonder wad leslie is gonna do ...
den ... it's lik evryone in the team dislik leslie except fer himself n the coach ... haha...
den ...hais ... she nv online fer lik hours... made me felt v insecure... bt den ... hais... she's hpy ... tt's the main thing barhx... wish she will b hpy in her whole life... tt's betta den anythin else i can ask fer lerhx...
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6:48 AM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
den ... went fer training... hate soccer... fer some reasons... especially when they play it at bball court...
den .. leslie ... c ... more n more ppl noe the tricks behind ur mask n bag...
den ... bball training... the coach ... really sesembles leslie alort...
den ... it's lik .. he say early dismissal bt actually cuz he gort smth on
den we played wif some big guys .. den it's lik still ok .. bt den when havin dinner.. den me n zech discuss lerhx...
num 4 -ZhiHui small forward
num 6 -Leslie Substitute
num7-Zech Shooting Guard
num8-Me Point Guard
num 9-Eugene Power Forward
num 11 - nicholas centre...
fer now... this is the current latest news...
den oso ... fall fer her more .. n more...
was really hpy... the moment when i was chatting wif her on msn ... hais.. bt den i'm still nort tt person fer her... hais ... wish i was... i really wish tu b ... bt den ... think it's hopeless de barhx... n the six month thing... i alrdy broke tt once... so i can't break it twice... ... i muz sty by her side n protect her...
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6:56 AM
Friday, January 12, 2007
the training's gonna b tougher... especially mine... cuz i will b their coach fer one hr b4 the actuall training where the coach comes...
den ... hehe...did wad i had been wishing tu do ... make her hpy ... lolx... bt den i nort sure if she really is ... bt den ... weeks ago ... i rmb tt i tried tu give up ...cuz they were loving... bt den ... when they have prob again ... den of cuz i nid tu try tu help calm her down larhx... tt's my promise tu her fer life...
didn't did my job ever since 27 december...
trying tu gt reemployed on 12january ...
hais ... hope i can make up fer tt few weeks ... those weeks... i were depressed too ...
bt nw ... i have tu carry on n do my job lerhx... b her clown ... tt's the oni thing i'm capable tu do ...
wish me play bball tuday will b fun barhx... bb
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7:21 PM
den ... the rain quite heavy ...
den i stayed at hm ... played habbo hotel ... met all kind of ppl ... some were juz nort civilised... bt den ... wanna find some v great de fren ... bt den ... can't find any ...
den ... some of em lurve death note too ... so gd... hehe...
den nth tu do ... den watch ppl de wrestling profile... wa... den oso saw jackie chan de... n jet li ... omg... they so damn cool when they do their stunts...
den ...had my dinner... anyway ... gort one girl called christine... v interesting ... bt den ... nvm... haha
den ... she kip askin me abt my past... so funny ... den ... wait fer ppl tu online... none really gd fren online till huimin went online... she sound sad... hope she regains her smile ...
den my stupid sis ... have her own com ... den still wan snatch my com ... wad the hell .. still kip tell her fren wad fkin bro ... i wanna say she fkin sis oso arhx... this kind of sis ... in my eyes... she's nth bt a spoiled child hu is lik gangster ... n lowly educated...
nth bt a trash ...
anyway ... hais ... v sian sia ... hope boredom wun appear in my dictionary anymore...
n jomelle... frm wad i heard n gathered.. she's nort tt innocent n gentle girl i known ... her frens seemed tu dun agree wif wad i said n oso point out some incident tu support their opposition ... mayb .. n mayb ... givin up is nort bad... she might nort b tt jomelle i known ...
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5:16 AM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
i rmb tt i tell myself tt i will nort bring leslie along fer any extra bball training bt i did... n den ... my skills ... start tu come bck tu me smoothly lerhx...
den ... i planned fer leslie or zhi hui to overtake me as point guard ... bt den fer the present situation... i can't afford tu make this decision ...
den ... i promised myself n them tt i will nort make any contact wif ppl frm chij oln... bt i did
bt at least i didn't sms her or tok thru msn ...
so i didn't had any contacts wif her barhx...
n tumolo ... the day ahead isn't worth lookin 4ward tu ... there's no excitement in my life anymore... there's onlie bball bball n bball ... nth else ... absolutely... i duno y ... bt den i feel tt there's no nid fer my existence in this world sometimes... cuz ... i dun even noe wad i can do evryday ... evryday juz pass lik flash n i can do nth bout it ... omg... hais...
so this new blog skin here... hope it will bring me luck ... wish i can b lik sasuke in tt centre picture... hugging tt special one fer me ...
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7:45 AM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
den ... bt den after tt ... thoughts went into me ... i've always been the most middle man ... both my sis side my mum ... den i am the oni one tt side neither sides... so y shud i ever offer any helpin hand tu my mum ...bt den she is pathetic too ... bt den ... my dad dotes on my sis ... the second child... den my mum dotes on the youngest sis ... den me is nth in their eyes...
n tt's y i'm always the most self centered towards my family... n this time i did something i nv guess i would have done b4 ... siding my mum too ... cuz my dad is really too horny lerhx... hais ...
den ... went tu play bball ... hais... is short ones so ez tu bully??? bt den i proved them wrong... small doesn't = weak ... n tt's y the lonewolf is here... u might b bigger ... bt lonewolf is juz too fast fer these ... so fatso ... even if u wanna spar... u might nort emerge as the victor at the end of the day ... though i might b the underdog..
anyway ... hais ... y suddenly say wad hao yi is my stead de??? so out of a sudden ... it's lik noone ever tell me b4 ... those stupid woodlanders... do things without telling others... n her... giving up .... tu do tt ... i noe it's nort ez... bt i will try forgetting evrything havin tu do wif chij oln ...
n ... anyway ... cutted my hair ... hehe...
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5:56 AM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
den ... it's lik ... had thought of the plan of our team lerhx... we muz 1st recruit enuff talents ... bt hu shud we recruit... we dun wan indisciplined players in the team ...
thus ... we r going tu hunt ferr players hu r civilised n talented at the same time ... might b difficult ... bt den i hope we could as we nid tt tu reach our goal ... the youth cup ...
den ... she ... hais ... she's lik wanting us tu b fren ... bt den ... by being frens wif her .. makes it harder fer me tu give up ... thus i wanna stop disturbing her life... it will oni burden her... n oso myself ...
i dun wan tu b sad over her ... it's nort a gd sensation... hais ... ending here barhx... n oso ... evryone in CHIJ OLN hu i noe .. erm ... hais ... treat it lik i've been in a dream all along barhx... these six-seven months of knowing em ...
since they hate me ... serve well too ... i would b able tu forget evrything bout the past easily den ... wish so ...
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7:15 AM
Monday, January 08, 2007
bt den hope tt things lik tt wun occur again ... cuz it's really v bad fer me ... i really wish tt i could juz settle down wif one person n gt along wif it ...
den ... went tu eat lunch wif myself ... walkin in the rain ... depressed... the sky is lik crying fer me ... thx u fer being there fer me ... i noe i legend killer oso no nid treat me so well one wad... haha...jkjk... now can oni make a joke outta myself lerhx...
i learnt tt we shud move on wif life...while walkin on tt long route tu mac... i discover tt no matter hw sad we r ... the ppl around wun notice... so we shud juz try tu b at our best of mood... den juz ...the earth is still spinning... yupp... so we shud ... learn frm depressionist...
dun give up ... move along wif life... ...bt den tt 24 hrs curse... i think it's fer real... it's nort once or twice... tt one i can call it coincidence... bt den 4 times in lik less den 3 weeks... so ... i hope tt person out there trying tu curse me ... plz stop lerhx ...
den ... think i muz start over anew... 2 ppl might b going tu b eliminated out of my life lerhx ... jomelle especially ... hais... though i hate tu admit it ... bt den she's the 1st girl tu b so difficult tu take my eyes off... so ... muz say my last farewell tu her... even if i c her on streets... i will juz treat it lik she's juz another stranger on tt street... juz walk away ...
wish there's bball training tuday ... wanna play n train well .. hais ... muz b the best i can b on the bball side since i can't on the relationship's side...
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11:07 PM
den i went tu c the females play bball ... some sorta fear them ... cuz ... i dunno ... i juz scared of touching em ... if i accidentally .... omg... den i will b sentenced ferr raping... dunno y i so timid n particular bout this... i nort scared tt i kill a person ... bt i scared tt i will b accused of raping... wierd guy ... ain't i ???
den ... at nite... me n zech discuss bout the bball team ... really think tt the coach is v irresponsible larhx... iit's lik we r the ones thinkin of the team structure instead of him ... anyweay ... i wun b putting leslie on the starting 5...
n i've settle my mind tt either me or zhi hui will b point guard... depending on if i can transfer my skills tu him ...
den zech will b the forward...
so three of us will b main five...
den ... if we can find a pro 3 point shooter... den it will b PG=Zhi Hui/me SG=tt miracle guard SF=me/zhihui PF=Zech C=Nicholas...leslie will b the substitute..
den if we can't find a shooter n instead have a gd centre... den will b ... PG=Zhi Hui/me SG=me/zhihui SF=Zech PF=Nicholas C=the miracle centre wif leslie as substitute
n if we have such gd lucks tt we find a gd shooter n a gd centre den ...
PG=Zhi Hui/Me SG=the miracle guard SF=Me/Zhi Hui PF=Zech C=the miracle centre wif leslie n nicholas as substitute
i wish tt i can train zhi hui into a great PG , better den me ... so tt i can b a SF
bt if cannort den we will swoop position den i b PG lerhx...
anyway ... PG(point guard),SG(shooting guard),SF(small forward),PF(power forward),C(centre)
hehe... so this is our plan ... lol ... anyway ... n i've researched on some ways tu train our players ... hehe... sound lik coach ... bt i was once ... bt nort anymore...
n ... hais ... she dun even care bout me barhx... juz treat me as a puppet..
n on 10:28PM 8JAN...I"m going tu b there ferr another her ... hehe... den ... luv her wholeheartedly... =)
Loveless on
6:41 AM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
den the sun so scorching hot ... den head ache ... den it's lik ... training ...
hais ... den it's lik the coach kip dun wan tu hear me out ... i gort advice fer him den he dun hear... he really think he's tt great???
den ... y does he lik have so much expectation fer me ... i juz lik tu slack around during trainings... can't i ???
den ... hais ... i really dunno ... den ... it's lik ... leslie v wad sia ... haha... suddenly gort one person oso think tt he kip bullshiting... lol... at least... den i can now finally entrust someone wif my skills... zhi hui ... lol..i will train him tu b the main starting point guard de ... so tt i can b the small forward... hehe...
den ... yeah ... den my perfect dream team is drawing closer n closer...
den ... hais ... she ... wad does she wan me tu do ... i really ... dun wan tu ...give up ... bt if she really wan me tu ... den no choice... i alrdy dun have tt bright future ahead of me ... so oso cannort blame her... hais ...
ok... i promise u ... i will give u up ... k ??? hais...
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5:54 AM
Saturday, January 06, 2007
den ... hais ... she ask me tu give up ... she had a past which ... been troubling her... frm wad she said... bt think it's becuz i too ugly... nort becuz of her wadeva past barhx... i nort sure.,.. hais...
den ... i gt into the strting 5 ... bt den ... hais ... the coach can't tolerate me ferr nort being alert... cuz of her... hais... i really wish i can juz concentrate on bball ... bt den i can't...
den coach doesn't seemed tu b listening tu my advice... i can tell u lorhx... our coach is nort tt pro de ... plus ... i defeated him b4... hw can he lik neglect member's advice... ???
y can't he lik hear me out ... wad i wanna suggest???thinkin he's the no 1 coach in singapore??? he's no different frm the adult version of leslie ... argh...
den ... hais... i dun lik it... he haven c me unleashed my fullest potential ... yet he ask me b main five... is he trying tu lik insincerely choosing main five??? wad i wan is a serious team ... nort one insincere team ...
hais...
den ... desiree??? true??? bt i nort sure ... she can b caring smtimes... bt den ... dunno ... plus doesn't she lik samuel or wad de marhx???? hmm...confused lerhx... let's stop here... bb
Loveless on
7:17 AM
Friday, January 05, 2007
den went tu play bball ... really v worse lerhx ... the situation ... too long nv unleash my skills tu my fullest... plus tt kind of thing struck on me ... hais... i now have lower staminna... or shud say shorter...
den ... i jump lower lerhx... i used tu touch bckboard... n at her hse... i was able tu touch beyond juz tt ... hais ... den it's lik ... dunno ...
den i dunno hw we can pass tumolo's test ... me n leslie ... we muz work together ... tu pass tt test ...
den he will b my teamate lerhx ... no.9 the speedyboy n num 6 de leslielol ...jiayoujiayoujiayou... hehex...
hais... bt i tuday is laugh the most thruout de week barhx... other den tuesday cuz tt's the day when she accepted me ...
den it's lik ... leslie say i seldom laugh... i tried tu lerh ... hais...
it's the most laugh lerhx ... i ever had ... ferr the week ... nort acting cool ... juz depressed...
n ... y can't she give me a chance tu chng?
i really nid a chance ... i really luv her... ferrr the 1st time in my life ... i luv someone so much ... mayb u can call tt a retribution... i nv cherish her enuff... n nw i gt the retribution ... hais...
ok... n i had enuff... i really wish tu b wif her... y muz eaven b so KIND tu me !!!hais...
i luv her ...bb
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7:48 AM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
hais... is there really no chance anymore...???
y am i the one hu have tu undergo this ... y leslie doesn't have tu ???or anyone else out there???
hais...
ithis is the 1st time of my life ... nort being able tu jump or run ...
am i going tu die ????
hais... i dun wan tu b hu i am now ... i wan tu b the person hu laughs n encourage ppl tu smile always ...
i didn't do tt ferr a long time ...
hais... i juz wan a chance... can't i have a chancE???hais... it's always lik tt... in basketball n all tt ... evrything in my life... i always lack of one thing called a chance... so ... hais ... bt i really wish tu stop all these...
i wish tt she can come bck into my life once again ...
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4:02 AM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
n so this is hw evrything's gonna end...
we all juz end it ... lik tt...
this morning... went tu bank wif my mum den ate at macdonalds... den went bck hm ...den went tu kovan ... where things juz end there...
actually i noe things r juz getting on the wrong path ... on the mrt 2 different ppl stare at me ... outside tt macdonalds... someone oso stare at me ...juz knew things aren't getting ez on me ...
n there... the fatal blow surfaced towards me ...my heart juz shatter into bits u can't c ...
dun even think i could play wif basketball table tennis,badminton,bowling... all tt... i shall give up on all tt ... my dream juz shattered in front of me ...evrything tt once belonged tu me ... will vanish...
hais... juz lik tt... frm tumolo onwards ... i'm nort me anymore... my blood will contain the temperature of less den 0 degreee... thus...beware...
Loveless on
3:37 AM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
he wasn't lik tt in the past... nw he lik dun care bout our survival lerhx... looks lik i really muz find one job tu support myself so tt my mum dun have so much burden ... bt den my mum oso too cheapo lerhx larhx... we go vivocity is tu have fun... nort tu b troubled of the cost...
y can other kids juz enjoy their leisure while we have tu help her spot on which is the cheapest b4 we buy the things we wan ???
bt anyway ... bought the walkman de earpiece lerhx... hehe... wanna buy her a present bt dunno wad tu buy ...
bb
Loveless on
3:10 AM
Monday, January 01, 2007
i really dunno wad tu say ... i'm really still feeling v guilty tu jomelle... i really dunno hw tu tok tu her in a serious manner... y am i always hurting her???hais... bt either path might b hurtful isn't it ???
shud i really turn bck ??? bt it's too late tu turn ...
hais... i wanna REST IN PEACE ...hais...
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6:11 AM